Sunday, January 30, 2005

yay. went shopping just now! bought clothes from e-base! haa. gonna continue shopping tomorrow at s & k. oh and we're celebrating adeline's birthday later. supposed to be on 2 feb but many people cannot make it. so...there! HAHA. we're going suki sushi at parkway. yum. but gonna get fat. dot dot. then have to buy jess's present tomorrow. i'm so broke!~

his eyes...

they seem to be telling me something(which i dont know what) HAHA.

or am i thinking too much? it's the first time i feel different when i look into someone's eyes.

take me with you
5:02 PM

Friday, January 28, 2005

YAWNZ! i'm so dead...

haa ok this morning i saw that guy. the one i always see at eunos? yea and i think i kinda diao-ed him. lol. he was like looking at me and i was like...didn't know where to look?! but i knew definitely not straight into his eyes...and so...i kinda ended up diao-ing him i guess. whahaha`~ ok i shan't do that tomorrow. didn't mean it what... HAHA.

when to tm this afternoon. yf and angela wanted to drink milk from ntuc but they weren't cold. so i suggested that they put the not-cold milk into the fridge?! (what do you call those at ntuc where they display cold diary products?) yea anyway its there. so found a 'hole' among cartons of cold-milk and quickly hide the not-cold milk. HAHA. so we walked around...and around..waiting for the milk to chill. and we even went to check to see whether had anyone taken the not-cold milk and put it back to the shelf where we found them. haa. then when they wanted to take the hopefully-it-had-turned-cold-milk, there was this supervior or dont know who standing in front of the fridge!! haha. so damn funny lar. because we didn't dare take the milk. so had wait till her back was facing us before we rushed to get the milk. HAHA. so dumb can.

and then bought a bikini for adeline's birthday...weee!..

i went to buy bubble tea just now. then there was this guy who said "HEY!!" when he saw me. then i was like "huh? me?" then everyone turned to share at me... and i was like... "huh? what?" dot dot. after that loud HEY., that guy didn't say anything else so...like that lor.

must do gp essay tomorrow!!! BORING!!! so tired... <3

take me with you
2:13 PM

Wednesday, January 26, 2005

yooo whoo!.. haa. as usual i entirely screwed up my econs test yesterday! because i thought the 45minutes-one essay question would be 12-13 marks those kinds you know?! but, haha...it was a 25 marks one! stunned. and so...there it goes... =\ and my maths, i failed like crap can. because i copied the question wrongly and similarly...there it went. i could have passed. really.

today's hydro session at scas was great! haa. the pool is only 1.2m lucky ar!.. it's so much fun than doing class activity especially PE! i was volunteering at scas last year and i helped out every monday in the afternoon which happened to be PE lesson for the class i was allocated to. and...it seemed like i was the one having pe instead of the kids. yea... had to think during pe somemore!.. dot dot.

hey. found out that hypocrites are scary! =

take me with you
10:39 AM

Sunday, January 23, 2005

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOCKS!

why is there the feeling of emptiness in my heart....

take me with you
9:52 AM

Saturday, January 22, 2005

AHH. tired. went to safra tampines for squash HAHA. know what? initially we booked only 1 court for 2 hrs. but then...we played for 3hrs+ using 2 courts! power ah. haha. because the courts weren't locked and nobody bothered to make spot checks. only the lights and fans were not on. but still, HAHA..each person had to pay 2 bucks only lo. haa. then stayed back at safra to study. yea outside the squash court! HAHA and we kept eating but the things there are damn expensive! because its the only food stall and there're no competitors. its a MONOPOLY. haha. studying down there wasnt that productive. instead, it was playing squash that was productive. HAHA.

hmm. that tpjc squash guy asked me out. if camel is reading this bet he'll laugh his head off. anyway, still considering. because... dot dot. haa.

yea... happened to know some things about him whom i see every morning in the train. erm, we are certified strangers by the way. haa. apparently i've a few friends who know him. anyway, i'm 'walking away' from him. not literally but...you know...haa. because, he's someone else in mind already. so yupz. but still, gotta 'thank' him. its him who gave me something to look forward to each day in the past. now, though i guess i'll still see him every morning...hmm...but i'll...ya...'walk away' (not literally) from him. haha. i'm not sad lar ok. not like im in love with him or anything. but perhaps just disappointed.

yawn. anyway...

singlehood is good for the heart!

take me with you
11:43 AM

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

elloz. today's school was kind of horrible. got scolded by mr lim because some people copied their chem practical work and he found out. i said some and of course i'm not a subset of that some. haa. understand?! => yea anyway, he was on the verge of breaking down when he yelled...tears were welling up and his voice cracked. =\ sigh. yea.

then angela,yf and i went to tm with yisi they all excluding vanessa. our class is totally hopeless lor. dot. so not united can. some even objected having a class identity. so whatever lor. then we thought of getting our own identity instead. as in angela,yf,me plus yisi's group. we thought of many weird and funny names for our clique. haa`~~ anyway, we havent gotten the identity yet. thought of many dumb ideas but couldnt decide on one. haa. so typical lar. yawnzz. oh ya then i saw sg and her bf. and it happens so coincidentally that yisi they all were in the same class as her bf back in sec school. then they said he isn't a good guy...dirty-minded and all. but he seems sweet to sg leh. *shrugs* oh well... and!! i saw my ex-npcc sir! he was holding hands with one of my sec school npcc teacher-in-charge! and i thought he's married with a daughter whose name is also elizabeth?! oh gawd...dont tell me...hmm...oh well. *shrugs*

hmm. you know there's someone in my class who's damn materialistic and richy rich? yea it's she who claims that buying a class shirt is a waste of money. dont understand right?! me too.haa. and there's someone who hates my friend. and they always say mean stuff about others. you know what are these people called? haa....stinky meanies! whaha. oh well...

perfumes to the rescue!..

anyway, i feel that these people who are full of hatred for others are so pity you know. because they always have to see the people whom they hate everyday, have to feel frustrated and pissed at them...thus, they won't feel happy!.. haa. just dont understand. why must there be hatred? not as if others have done you wrong or something. dot dot. though i dont like some people in my class...but not to the extent which i actually hate them right. so my life aint affected. life's much more easier and happy without them. haa. find me wise? i think so too. =D angela keeps pestering me to find out what those stinky meanies said about her. how to tell? she's be so hurt. dot dot. how how. dotzZz. zZz~~

i'm so stressed. econs and chem...AHH.

im taking the 6.57am train tomorrow!..gonna leave my house early!..hmmpff. =p

take me with you
12:44 PM

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

hello everybody!.. today.. i missed the 7am train!!! dammit. which means...dot dot. grumpz! so now waiting for the arrival of wednesday morning.hee.oh and i was nearly late for maths test. but luckily it started alittle later. haa. oh and i just screwed up the dumb test. =\ again.

gee and i pon-ed tuition just now. haa. stayed on for training instead!..yawn. oh ya i'm going to help out at scas for this hydro-therapy thingy. hee. have to get into the water to help the kids! hope it'll be fun. and hope...erm...nothing happens. =>

ok gotta go do 2 questions on alcohol now. haha. because mr lim goes through the tutorials at a rate of about...1+qn/period? haha. yawn..

..tired..

take me with you
2:15 PM

Monday, January 17, 2005

yeah finally. my uncle came and reformated my com. so whatever pictures, 200+ songs etc i had are now...gone. haa. okie.

and so, i just realised i've alot of homework left untouched. chem practical, maths tutorial and tomorrow's test! i think that mathematical induction, commonly know as MI just suck. totally crappy. makes no sense to me! arghh. anyway i'm screwed for tomorrow's maths test manz. *chews nail* oh ya did i mention that mjc's black house shirt is totally cool? hee.

i'm looking forward to going to school every morning, taking the 7am train. *grins*

Singapore has finally won the tiger cup! wOoOoo!`~~ i aint a soccer fanatic, but still...Singapore won!.. hahahahahaha... =D

why say all this when everything's over now? its totally pointless. dont you get it? some things are just too late. once you lose it, it'll never return to you. you can blame nobody but yourself for not cherishing it when you'd it. without realization, you let it drift apart from you. and now, its gone. now and forever.

take me with you
1:32 PM

Friday, January 14, 2005

new post!haa. these few days my com had been so damn retarded. grumpz. it hung before i started doing anything!..boo. oh well...

did i mention my timetable rocks?! HAHA. it does. but then again, i've trainings 3 times a week which doesnt make any difference. dot dot. but squash still rocks. yeah!.. haa. oh ya had chemistry test today. which i think im going to flunk! hah. dotz.

you know, some people stink. especially those who criticise and insult people whom they do not know well. and worst, in fact the people who got insulted arent just what they think they are. so stinky ok. and i dont understand what it means by 'they-think-they-are-better-than-the-rest theory' wah. super duper stinky. i cant believe such people exist you know. well, at least not in jc! yawn. think must bring perfume to school soon. but i'm allergic to perfumes. oh well. am i mean? hmm. but i just merely said those people stink. thats all. whaha. anyway, why be nice to meanie mean people? pollutants to the eyes, ears, SMELL, environment, air...whatever. haha. and my class is a clean and hygenic class! no stinky people allowed! haha. so mean. but then again, why be nice to people who hurt my friend. *makes faces*

perfumes to the recuse!..

HAHA. ok enough of those stinky meanies. hmm. AH. tell you guys something! today we were in the library during GP tutorial. and i saw a guy(J1) doing his whatever tutorials etc. angela thinks he doesnt look great but i think he looks...above average? hee. well anyway, when the bell rang, everyone stood up. and me, angela and yisi just STONED. WHY?! because that guy...is like around my height?! haa. we werent laughing at his height but because he had the im-tall face! HAHA. ok i'm being stinky(for 20secs). but well...HAHA.

oh ya, during CCA recruitment yesterday, about 50 people signed up for squash and less than 10 are guys!.. dotz. HAHA.

did i mention squash rawks? it does! haha.

take me with you
1:26 PM

Monday, January 10, 2005

I have had enough waiting for your so-called arrangements
The future that you spoke of, would never happen
I wanted to depend on you, but you werent there

Staring off into space by myself
Im standing outside the door of happiness
But havent been able to enter inside
The pain that you have cumulatively inflicted
Its really hard for me to be released from it

I've finally realized that love cannot return
And you were always understanding too late
Only in the end did you speak your mind
Crying and begging me to stay
I've finally realized that love cannot return
There are too many obstacles in front of us

You always wanted me to be obedient
But my tears were constantly streaming down
In the past you did not displayed the trust that you were supposed to give
I'd been slowly pushed off the cliff directly by you

From the paleness of my face
the memories are slowing down
The sweetness of the past is rewinding
the hopes that I'd once placed on you
Had been shattered by you time and again
Its already broken into too many pieces
How can they be put back together and resumed again?

take me with you
5:21 PM

Friday, January 07, 2005

Painful loss and broken dreams

Our paths once crossed and molded us into one.

Our love was the beginning of a beautiful dream.

For the first time in my life,

I felt that I had been blessed with love.

Today, our lives parted, without even a goodbye.

Wondering why and where you went.

Without answers to be heard, and only left with tears to fall.

Only left with a heavy heart,

and without dreams of a future between us.

Only left wondering of what could have been?

Because my love for you was real and true,

I will let you go in silence,

and remember you through all of my life.

I will always have the picture of your face in my mind.

I will always have, the feelings of my love for you,

in the deepest part of me.

In my mind, I now have to say goodbye to you, my love.

I wish you happiness.

I hope that you will find your dreams one day.

Perhaps, if there is such a thing as another life,

our paths will cross again.
where we will find, our everlasting love,

without barriers between us.

Realization, that our love, was forbidden from the start.

Realization, that our love, could not be permitted.

My memories of you, will always be embedded, into my heart.

I will remember your smile and your laughter's.

I will remember your gentleness and your love.

Most of all, I will always remember you.

I will always carry you, within me, from here to eternity.

11months and 5days.

take me with you
5:10 PM

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

today's the second day of school. dot. lessons started immediately after assembly yesterday. i thought because it was the first day, they would be more relax with us and wouldn't teach anything much. haha. ok was just day-dreaming as usual. zZzz

my timetable rox man!..haa. last year, the lastest i was released was 5.35 ok! and for 2days, excluding wed when we'd cca. this year, the lastest is 3.30!! can u believe it? woOoo! and! on tuesday and monday, if there isnt any make-up lessons or tests or whatsoever, i can report to school at 9! yea man!! and we've a new maths c tutor.like, finally. haa. our tutor last year, mrs quek, just couldnt control us la. dotzz`~ oh ya and the lessons now are all 45mins. and that includes recess! hee.

the j1s are having their orientation now and they are so damn noisy. kept cheering. as our classroom is situated on level1, we can hardly concentrate.dotz. this year's intake is 880! 100more than last yr's. mj's over-flooding man. haa. you know what?! this year's orientation tee is so much better than ours! be it the design, quality and quantity! irritating. but they dont have water-bottles.haa.but they've caps!ugh.and their orientation is until friday ok! so shiok right. dot. hmm havent seen any goodlooking ones yet. yawnz.

hmm had a test on all j1 topics today.which means i'd to reach school at 730 while others could reach at 9!zzZ. frankly speaking they were managable but i guess i still screwed it up. haa. didnt really study for it. dotz.

that's all for now! <3

take me with you
11:58 AM

Sunday, January 02, 2005

happy new year!

first entry of 2005! hee. got hit by squash ball today. dotz.

haiz.school's starting in 2days time. totally sucky man. worst, i haven't completed by econs homework. yawnzz. and i've to go to school all by myself from next year onwards. sighh`~~ and have to work towards the big fat A's. yawnz`~ still i hope there'll be some fun and excitment this year. but things will definitely not be the same as compared to last year. as in, probably not as fun-filled, as less-stressed, as less-work, as happy?hmm.but, hope to make the best out of it. wonder how the freshies will be like...as rebellious as us? or ... haha... dot dot dot`~

i feel like i'm walking with tubs of fats beneath me. eeeeek...gotta dye my hair black. so sianzz. yawn..

lets do some reflections...
2004...i wouldn't say it was one of the worst year i've ever had but it certainly wasnt a very good year. but it was considered good as compared to 2003. haha. there were many changes. missed the old times at secondary school, missed the people there. there were many things i had to cope with alone. been feeling down most of the time. in fact, i'd been someone i wasn't due to some...incidents. been feeling lost and confused most of the the time as well. hmm. still, there were happy moments too!.. had surprises as well..all in all, 2004 had been quite a year. haha. so many stuff happened that i could hardly cope. but well, i still did. whahaa`~ anyway, it's the past already. hope 2005 would be a better year.

take me with you
5:05 PM